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lets start with school:christy wasnt there, so i was freaking out that she was dead, that wasnt cool... shes alive as far as i know right now... but i didnt know that til after school and i was freaking out about that... and then i saw him 4 times today, the 2nd to last time was at katis locker, before 8th hour... amanda was trying to show kati our pride drawings on our notebook, and he showed up and i was just like "amanda, we need to go... NOW!" then in 8th hour, as soon as i got there i wrote notes to amanda and kati, then asked to go to the "bathroom" because i couldnt hold it in anymore, i was about to start crying, and i wasnt crying in front of ed. so i get out of the room, and i met up with mario in the hall... he really cheered me up, he kept talking in this crazy british voice... it was great, he left when we got to the end of the band hall, but by then i felt a lot better, and didnt end up crying after all... i had already cried in 3rd hour, isnt once a day enough??? everyones all like "whats wrong"... whats wrong is that i miss him... i still really want to be friends... anyway, back to my day... i went to the "carnival" with amanda, and met a bunch of people there, amanda kolar, cat, carrie, chelsea, nicole, jess, audrey, elyse, jason, ricky, pat, and candyce, plus alot of amandas freinds/family... i was having a great time until they played "the reason" by hoobastank... that songs on a certain cd that i cant listen to anymore, along with space-dye vest (dream theater) last train home(lost prophets) and broken (seether feat. amy lee)... all those songs have emotional attachment... there was only like 15 minutes left anyway, but while amanda was playing a game i took advantage of the school being made of brick to chill myself out... then on the way home from amandas, guess what they played on the radio.... thats right, the reason. then i kinda sat around, updated my dj, then updated this. on a happy note, i accepted 2 things today:1. i can sing, and really good too.2. i am pretty... maybe not hot, but good enough for myself... as i said to poster the other day, "i like my fat" well, im tired, and not in the best mood, ill prolly go to bed soon.